Back to December

I hear you come home in, December &&'d the first thought that runs through my mind is.. "are things gonna be the same?  is he gonna spend every day,night, every breath with me?".. That's how things use to be when he comes home. But then I realized things are different, not because we changed but our circumstances changed. Not knowing if this child is yours or where I stand in your life at this moment is breaking me down day by day. I don't know how to cope with the fact that I could possibly lose you, lose what WE'VE worked 4 hard long years for. &&'d thinking its all gone to waste just because of a mistake.

 I hope and pray everyday that this is just another obstacle that WE will overcome TOGETHER. Hoping that things between us don't change.because what we had was magical. we had our ups and downs but it never mattered I knew you were gonna be there when I needed you.

 I just wish I could go back to December..