Forgiveness

It's never ending it's the same shit over and over again, you constantly blame me for our failure . It wasn't me it was you, it was you who wouldn't forgive me and move on away from the past. I apologized a thousand time, the burden is no longer on my shoulders but something you need to think about and get over. I never meant to hurt you but things happen &&'d out of all people I expected you to get up &&'d keep on moving w. me you've expressed thousands of times how you couldn't live without me and how you loved me so much but yet you go day by day without even thinking about me you make no effort to better things but yet I'm the one to blame. I will no longer take blame for something that was forgivable. But know were done I'm moving on have a good life.

Back to December

I hear you come home in, December &&'d the first thought that runs through my mind is.. "are things gonna be the same?  is he gonna spend every day,night, every breath with me?".. That's how things use to be when he comes home. But then I realized things are different, not because we changed but our circumstances changed. Not knowing if this child is yours or where I stand in your life at this moment is breaking me down day by day. I don't know how to cope with the fact that I could possibly lose you, lose what WE'VE worked 4 hard long years for. &&'d thinking its all gone to waste just because of a mistake.

 I hope and pray everyday that this is just another obstacle that WE will overcome TOGETHER. Hoping that things between us don't change.because what we had was magical. we had our ups and downs but it never mattered I knew you were gonna be there when I needed you.

 I just wish I could go back to December..

Rihanna OFFICAL We Found Love Video

http://vimeo.com/dontbesquared/wefoundlove

Rihanna- We Found Love

It’s like you’re screaming, but no one can hear.
You almost feel ashamed that someone can be that important,
that without them you feel like nothing.
No one will ever undertsand how much it hurts.
You feel hopeless, like nothing can save you.
And when it’s over and it’s gone,
you almost wish that you can have all that bad stuff back
so that you could have the good.