&&'d only if you really knew me.

I've always been that girl that everyone wants to talk about and make rumors about, because they wanna  live my life. My advise to all of you is create your own life &&'d stop trying to imitate mine. My life is'nt as great as it looks. If you really knew me you would know that I dont get every guy I want. It's not easy being pretty &&'d smart, all guys want is sex. It's hard to find someone who is genuine. If you really knew me you would be able to see the sadness behind my smile. If I never smiled you would know the hurt behind all of the drama you haters cause me. I dont like to be hated on I dont Love my Haters, like wtfk go away &&'d mind your own business. If you really knew me you would know that im selfish. The most selfish person you would ever meet in your life, you may think I'm such a good friend &&'d great but EVERYTHING I do is to benifit me somehow. This is a dog eat dog world and you gotta be selfish to achieve life life. Im an over achieve &&'d I refuse to fail in life, so I will gladly pretend to be your friend to get what I want. If you really knew me you would know how much I care about what others think about , me how I try to be perfect in everyones eye. It's not easy &&'d I seem to be failing at it.
Now, that you know cut me some slack. Everyone is'nt perfect but it doesnt hurt to try. ♥

New Insight

Well over the last 7 months there has been some dramatic changes in my life &&'d it's really caused me to look at things different, relationships,money,friendships will never be the same. I've learned something about relationships &&'d i wont be in a serious one unless I'm in it for good. I dont wanna play high school games. Money i've really need to learn to save, im not living with my parents anymore im on my own &&'d i just cant go splurging like i use to. friendships im set on friendships, i dont need new friends. im always down to meet new people but as of a friendship i dont see any new ones. I just am so happy now, i love everything im doing with my life &&'d i have a strick plan that WONT FAIL.

Breaking Point

Have you ever loved someone you would sacrifice everything for them, take the clothes off your back to keep them warm. Well I had that love &&'d it just crushed my heart. we argued nonstop he got on my nerves but yet I still wanted to be with him. Our break up left questions I wanted to be answered. So today I got those answer &&'d I am pissed at myself for asking I could have went on with life without knowing he felt that way. I finally know he does not love me but he does love the girl he cheated on me with. AHHH my heart was crused 3 years of my fuckn life, we went through everything. &&'d he doesnt love me anymore how am I suppose to accept someone I spent 3 years with could stop loving me after 3 months apart. Well I learned a huge lesson, I'm putting the hole together that he broke &&'d I'm now ready to get on with life. I'm glad I had that reassurance now I know I'm not missing out on anything.
_Mooie♥.

A ♥ I Don't Wanna Be Apart of...Anymore

I'm going to take you back to when it all began.
Summer 09, meet you &&'d we were great. Hung out everyday, the s** was great,conversaton was endless, &&'d you never put a frown on my face. I was "having my cake &&'d eating it too."
Now, lests jump to 2010.
We were on the ends every now &&'d then. We started to argue, I guess thats when I realized I liked you. I thought I was doing good. A year had past &&'d our feelings were beginning to grow, not to fast not to slow. But your problem was expressing your feelings, I drew back a bit, giving you your space. Then I began to Love you, everytime I thought about it I threw up alittle bit in my mouth, thats not how I wanted things between us to be, I wanted the laughs,the jokes, the flirting to continue. Our feelings never being involved.But I could'nt ignore my heart anymore,so I let it be know. iLoved you.
It's 2011, babby.!
You told me you loved me,after a arguement. I dont believe it.I never will. We dont talk &&'d the slightest joke, song, movie, cereal, name, reminds me of you. I wish I could get you out of my head but I still love you. We talk occacionally but I get the feeling it's not really there anymore. Converastion is awkward, no more laughs, finally I shed a tear for you, &&'d you make me frown everyday. Never did I think it could get this way. Though you could be, ahaha. that one. I've moved on physcially, but mentally you still have my heart. I cant get over the fact that,.I'm stuck loving you &&'d I dont want any part of it.