My Best Friend &&'d My Back Seat Buddy.

In life we all come across that one person that always there for you, whether it's family, friends,a boyfriend, girl friend, etc. that person leaves a place in your heart that cant be replaced. Well that person for me is my best friend Ricky Allen or Allen as I like to call him. We dated in a past life,lol freshman year of highschool. But it didnt workout, we're really close we dont get jealous when it comes to each other. He's always there when I need to talk to him, about anything. Now that I'm in college 2 hours away from home I miss him like crazy, he has a girlfriend , 2 jobs &&'d he goes to school. So we are slightly falling off. What am I to do? Of course we have feeling for each other but I see it as a sacrifice, I rather be his best friend than his nothing at all. Over all he's a great guy &&'d iLove him. As for him being my backseat buddy well that speaks for its self  I was afraid that it would change the way we feel about each other but it has'nt I still love him as much as I did before that day &&'d I dont mind him being with other people. Cause as he told me it's J &&'d R for life.

10-2006 iLove my Back Seat Buddy♥

Im a Horrible Lier

So, I've been talking to this boy for about a year &&'d a half now,were not serious but our feelings are strong for each other. We've told each other I Love you, but thats it ,once ,no need to repeat it. So I was texting my friend to tell her something,about this"speical person" but it was a lie. ( reminder: i dont lie, im a bad liar, i mean really bad liar) so I didnt send her the message I sent it to him, WOW!. he text me saying wow you sent it to the wrong person, lmfao your a smart liar. SO this just taught me dont lie, like I dont even know why I lied but it seemes like a grea idea, for this day on I vow not to lie. at ALL, unless it involves my well-being. lmfao.

Lesson Learned: dont lie, especially if you cant lie &&'d everyone knows it.

Frienships

Throughout life you meet new people everyday, some people become your friends &&'d others become your enimies.Well Im 19 years old, a freshman in college &&'d I have all the friends I need in life. After a certain age( 16) you should'nt make new friends, theres no time to gaint that trust &&'d that bond. My oldest friendship is 15 years(1998), my god-sister Breyannah, she's a year older than me &&'d she's white. She's been there for me through EVERYthing, we've lasted through the movings,the drama &&'d the arguments theres noone int his world I trust more than her. Then theres Taylor &&'d Quia I meet them two our freshman year in High School(2006). We cheered togethr &&'dlived our highschool years together, when something went wrong I knew I could count on them. Quia just recently had a babby(yesterday, January 27,2011) &&'d through all the drama I'ms till here, I love her &&'d Taylor they mean the world to me. Then there's Ashley &&'d Destiny(2008). Destiny is the girl I go to when I need a master plan &&'d answers I love her &&'d respect everything she does, she's strong &&'d taught me alot. Ashely is becoming a great friends of mine were close but it's room for growth.

 Making new friends, especially inc ollege is hard, you dont know who you can trust or who trust you, theres always that one girl who objective is to make your life a living hell,so my advice to you is to not even bother with that crow, im not saying dont socialize but make sure you keep them at an arm lengths distance.

My objective is to show everyone that there are good people out there there are life long friends, I dont want to make new frinds at all, Im happy with my gang &&'d were gonna be together till' death do us part.


"A friend is one who believes in you when you have ceased to believe in yourself."
- Sent by Lysha

A New Begining

After the hardships in life alot of people try to start over, i dont view a new begining as starting over but continuting on in life with what you have &&'d making the best of it. Dont eliminate people out of your life but put people in there places as of significance. Allow those you trust to stay close &&'d the ones you dont far away, Always remeber you can't trust anyone but yourself and God. Never look back on things &&'d regret them but look back &&'d learn fromt him. Yes, I know it sounds typical but it's true. I've learned alot from my past, I've enjoyed every minute of my partying, my schooling &&'d especially cheering. There of course are flaws in between all this happiness but nothing can ever change what made me who I am today. So when you begin your New Begining, keep those you loved ones around, learn from those who treat you qrong. but always forget to forgive forget &&'d trust in yourself.